I suppose I should start with a little bit about me. I live in a small apartment with one other human. I love to read, and I occasionally get it in my head that what I have to say has meaning, so on occasion I have the tendency to play around with high art and pen some poetry. Anything that can be done with my hands is quite relaxing to me, actually. I sew and knit and work on projects to pass the time. Food is a passion of mine. Chocolate, too.
I supposed I should get on to why I decided to start a blog of my own. Well, to be perfectly honest, it is therapeutic for me. Getting my thoughts down in a visible form helps. I have been given the diagnoses of Depression and Anxiety. Scary words, if you think about them for a bit. Nobody really wants to deal with such things. However, a little bit of understanding goes a long way. I am the black sheep of my family, for personal, private reasons that each of my family members figures is important to them. My immediate family, that is. For other members of my blood relations, the idea of family is just so strange and foreign to me that it just isn't a part of my personality, for my own personal, private reasons that are important to me.
So, there are no random calls to dad that involve me crying and complaining that my life is temporarily, horribly wrong. No admonitions from my brothers that everything will turn out right. No invitations from mom begging me to come over and get a good meal and a hug. However, that does not mean that I don't need some form of human companionship.
For myself, there is such a feeling of freedom to be able to talk to no one in particular. Just anyone who is willing to listen to what comes out of my noisehole for an insignificant amount of their day. I believe that it is easier to say what one has to say when they have never physically met their listener/s. There is no required obligation, stress, drama and little white lies that result from friendship.
Well, that is enough for now. I hope you have enjoyed the comfort of my cozy room. Good night and sweet dreams!
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