The Padded Room

This is my second blog.  Yay!  


I had to wake up early this morning to make my way to Century Plaza.  Government interviewing.  Always fun.  I fell asleep the night before about 3 a.m.  It's interesting to note that I can get tired as early as 9 pm, however, once I lay down to fall asleep, I suddenly am no longer sleepy.  I awoke at 8 a.m. this morning, so I was functioning for most of my day on 5 hours of sleep.  Not fun.  However, my health insurance has been reinstated on this day.  Thank the gods for these social safety nets.  I would hate to cost the taspayers an exhorbitant amount of money by not having healthcare and laying even more unpaid medical bills on their backs.  I would feel just horrible about that.  


Of course, the prospect of having to interact with other human beings was rather nerve-racking.  I have no personal problem with people at all.  It's interacting with them that makes my stomach feel like there is a hive of insects crawling around in my stomach.  I tense up.  Sometimes it warps into a full-blown panic attack.  Perhaps it's the the physical closeness.  Maybe it has something to do with my claustrophobia.  Or maybe it's the conversation.  I stutter and go into slow motion sometimes.  It should be noted that I have been diagnosed with autism.  Eye contact is uncommon for me.  Every time eye contact occurs with me, I feel as though I have been violated.  Trespassed upon.  Like someone brushing up against me physically.  How dare someone tread on the property of my soul, my innermost being?  Whatever causes these feelings, its not pleasant.


I picked up Book 2 of the Earth Chronicles by Zechariah Sitchin, seeing how as I was in the area.  Barnes and Noble field trip!  Always fun!  I can't wait to begin reading it.  I want to finish my X-Files book first.  Otherwise I shall never finish it.  Finishing projects has never been one of my strong points.  


Then I came home and finally took a nap.  The sweet release of sleep.  The daring of dreams!  A most quiet respite from the hassles of daily life...Then up again to enjoy my after-dinner mocha, which I usually have in the morning, however, the rush to Century Plaza forbade me from that most sacred of pleasures today.  Until the eve. Well, I shall sign off for tonight.  I will be back tomorrow!